I’m Frustrated With Everything

I’ve been frustrated with quite a few things this past week but they haven’t really gotten me down. Then today the deeper depression switch got flipped on (Bipolar) and everything felt much worse, with a sinking stomach, dark feeling and thinking things like, “I’m frustrated with everything.”

I happen to be reading the little book Christians Get Depressed Too, which is better than I thought it would be. I’ve been at this a long time and have been working on my thinking for many years, although physical type stuff is always there (yes, always) too. “I’m frustrated with everything” shows me that I’m engaging in false extremes as the book puts it. I think I call it all or nothing thinking but that might not be the best term.

So how do I work this out Biblically? Obviously I’m not frustrated with everything in the whole world but more importantly, not nearly everything in my life. I’m not frustrated with my wife or cats or a whole bunch of other things. So I’m magnifying my frustration. I can think about 2 Cor 4:17 to put it into perspective.

2 Corinthians 4:16b-18 GW
Though outwardly we are wearing out, inwardly we are renewed day by day. 17 Our suffering is light and temporary and is producing for us an eternal glory that is greater than anything we can imagine. 18 We don’t look for things that can be seen but for things that can’t be seen. Things that can be seen are only temporary. But things that can’t be seen last forever.

(By the way, this is one of the many great things about Scripture memory.)

The frustration won’t last forever, it’s not that bad in these cases and I need to see things from a godly spiritual perspective and take refuge in Him. I need to think more about the things that will last forever and less about the temporal (Col 3:1-3). Easier said than done.

For now, the sinking, dark feeling is still there but the switch will get flipped again and the depression will be more moderate as it usually is. (For me it’s chronic.) The improvement in thinking will help the mental aspect of it hopefully and help me to persevere (James 1:2-4) for when the bigger things come along, which they will.

Comments welcome.

14 Responses to “I’m Frustrated With Everything”


  1. 1 Craig Bennett

    Praying for you brother.

  2. 2 Scripture Zealot

    Thank you.
    Jeff

  3. 3 Stan McCullars

    My brother, I pray that God would be your peace, now and always.

  4. 4 THEOparadox

    Jeff,

    The idea of “false extremes” is a useful observation. I’m prone to that kind of thinking, and like you I find it is a warning sign.

    I like the way you took a step back and used Scripture to evaluate your thinking – and to establish new thinking – rather than letting the darkness overtake you. It’s a good example for the rest of us in our various trials and temptations.

    Praying for you, my friend.

    Derek

  5. 5 Eric

    Jeff – I pray that this will soon pass and you’ll feel God’s peace in a deeper way.

  6. 6 Louis

    My heart breaks for you Jeff. Please know that there is a community of people who are praying for God’s comfort and solace to be yours in ways never imagined. You are a gentle soul and we have been sustained by your blog in more ways than you will perhaps ever know.

  7. 7 Craig Bennett

    Hi Jeff. I wrote a poem last night, about finding peace. I was in a reflective / depressive frame of mind also.

    http://craigbenno1.wordpress.com/2011/10/31/finding-peace/

    Perhaps it also relates to your own journey.

  8. 8 Scripture Zealot

    Thank yous all for the prayers. I didn’t expect all of that, I mainly wanted to take some psychological stuff and “make it Biblical”. I’m thinking about buying a Kindle book on reducing stress which has 100 very short chapters, and finding a Biblical basis for many of them. From looking at the sample chapter, it looks decent and not new age or anything weird.

    I hope that somebody benefits from the post. I appreciate that comment Derek.

    This happens (back and forth stuff) regularly unfortunately but it’s not all that deep this time around.

    Some think that if a Christian is suffering from chronic mental illness they must be doing something wrong or maybe they’ve given up. Little do they know what often goes on behind the scenes and what some of us to to cope and try to improve, by God’s grace. When someone tries to give me advice, how do I tell them it’s like asking a doctor if they’ve tried penicillin? (Although that’s pretty extreme.) Maybe that’s for another post.

    Looks like I’m venting and still in curmudgeon mode.
    Jeff

  9. 9 Scripture Zealot

    Great poem Craig. I was going to say that it’s so honest, but really, that should be the norm. It was/is in the Psalms. I’m not much of a poet. I’m inspired to write one every year or two. One was about chaff (from coffee roasting) in my underwear. Others are more substantial. Thanks for showing it to us.
    Jeff

  10. 10 matthew

    Thanks Jeff – it’s so helpful to hear this, both in terms of my own ups & downs (which admittedly are less extreme), but also in terms of being sensitive to where other people are at, and what might be going on “behind the scenes,” as you say.

    I appreciate you being open about this.

    Oh and I know what you’re talking about, coffee-chaff-in-underwear-wise!

    Matt

  11. 11 Scripture Zealot

    Thanks for the nice comment Matthew. That funny that you can identify with the chaff in your underwear. The dry process stuff gets everywhere if using a fan outdoors.
    Jeff

  12. 12 OI

    – Jeff –

    Hi. I understand what you are going through. When I first got saved, I started realizing that my emotions would go up and down. And they would be so extreme. And I was so frustrated, until I started remembering how my dad was like this. Kind of like a bi-polar, manic depressive type of thing. So, it was like a hereditary thing. Now I knew where it came from. I didn’t, nor do I now know much about this type of thing, I just pondered this in my head and spoke to someone from church about it.

    I felt bad about the way my mind and emotions were going, and I didn’t know what to do. Neither my dad or myself ever got treated for anything like this or even diagnosed, but for myself, I knew something was going on.

    And then I prayed about it, and as the years go on, it has gotten better. But the other thing I know I need, is some vitamins. More vitamin B6 to be exact.

    Not everything is the devil. Sometimes it’s just a chemical imbalance or something along those lines.

    I remember watching Joyce Meyer one day and she was saying that a lady she knew was having mental or emotional problems (I forget which one). And then the lady went to her doctor and found out that she just needed to add more of a certain mineral to her diet. I think it was iodine. And from that day on, she was much better.

    Anyway, sorry for the rambling. I hope you get better soon.

  13. 13 Scripture Zealot

    Thanks for your comment. Looks like we both have some other problems too. It’s easier to judge people when there are less factors. Rambling is no problem.
    Jeff

  14. 14 OI

    – Jeff –

    You’re welcome!

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