Suffering, Grace and Joy

I’m not having a good day. Yesterday was even worse. These days come up without warning. Those of you who deal with this “mental” stuff know what I mean. As for you happy people, we need you too as long as you’re not too obnoxious.

Don’t be alarmed, but I was watching a TV show where at the end they had a message about suicide. It said, “If you or a loved one are thinking about suicide, please call…” If I called every time I thought about it I think they’d get pretty tired of hearing from me.

(As much as I want to get face to face with God, I will not ever commit suicide and I’ve been as low as low can go. I have fantasized about it and ruminated on it but I’ve been able to stay out of the ‘abyss’ for the most part for quite a while, thank God.)

Edit: If you are thinking about suicide and haven’t yet dealt with it or talked with anyone about it, please get help. Go to, call 1-800-273-TALK, talk to a trusted friend or a pastor who understands. If they aren’t helpful, talk with someone else. These thoughts are what Satan wants you to think. (John 10:10).

While I was praying today, during the portion when I thank God, I was overwhelmed with gratitude (which isn’t nearly a strong enough word) for the fact that God chose me to be included in His family (Colossians 1:12-14). There is no reason to choose me, I don’t teach, lead, pastor, write books, evangelize much etc. But for some reason He chose me. God even provided me with the faith to believe, and gave me His Holy Spirit before I was able to understand and believe the gospel message. These things are obvious to me both in experience and in Scripture. (John 17:2, Acts 13:48, Romans 9:16, Ephesians 1:4-5, 2 Timothy 1:9 to name a few that might be a little off the beaten path for some)

To think that God sacrificed His Son to take away our sins is beyond comprehension. (Romans 3:25-26, Romans 8:32, Romans 4:25)

God has provided me with so many things to be thankful for including joy in the midst of suffering. It’s a very strange thing. I’d rather just have the joy, and some happiness along with it would be good too.

Praise God for joy. I don’t know what we would do without it.

I hope this didn’t sound too much like “me and my salvation” as N.T. Wright would put it. But as bloggers we write about our experiences.

2 Responses to “Suffering, Grace and Joy”

  1. 1 Brian

    I guess above all we thank God for grace.  Grace upon grace and still more grace!  It is grace we need to make it most of the time.  What is grace?  It is knowing God loves and accepts you no matter what, even on the bad days.  That we cannot make him love us more or less than he already does, because he already loves us to the fullest extent of his love – best seen through the cross of Christ.   It is his grace then, the enables us to get through it all.   1 Corinthians 15:10 (TNIV) has been a theme verse for me:
    But by the grace of God I am what I am, and his grace to me was not without effect. No, I worked harder than all of them—yet not I, but the grace of God that was with me.

  2. 2 Scripture Zealot

    Thanks for adding to the grace part.

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